I lost my son to a drug addiction, and I wrote this song to try to see the world through his eyes. He was a good man, wonderful heart, but made some bad decisions. I know many of you may have a loved one who is suffering with an addiction, and prayers for those who have to watch a loved one suffer through their nightmare! My son took his own life. I couldn't talk about his passing, so I expressed my thoughts and pain through music. It's truly gotten me through it all. I hope you enjoy the song!
Link is at the bottom of this page.
Song Title: THE NIGHTMARE BEGINS
Lyrics:
"Here's my story"
Smokin' cigarette butts,
Livin' in my old van.
Nothing left from the food bank,
But green beans in a can.
Lost my wife and kids,
Got hooked hard on meth.
If the drugs don't kill me,
I'm gonna starve to death.
I never dreamed my life,
Would turn out this bad.
Early mornin' with-draws,
Waking up fightin' mad.
Had dreams of a future,
A big family home.
Now, I look around,
There's no one... I'm alone.
There's got to be a way,
To get myself in line.
I've been to rehab now,
I think about five times.
Family tried to help,
Prayed for me and cried.
They don't want me there now,
I stole from them and lied.
I never dreamed life,
Would turn out so sad.
Scrapping for a dollar,
My teeth are looking bad.
Searching for a shelter,
No minutes on my phone.
Drugs, stole my future,
There's no one... I'm alone.
Meth is the drug of choice,
First time was with my friends.
I never had a clue,
That first time would not end.
I thought to myself,
Just once, for kicks and grins.
Truth is, just one time...
And the nightmare, begins.
"Why did I do this?"
"I need some help"
https://youtu.be/e5kQRDWy1HE?si=jMAvDU2bUfBa7K5C
